Day 5 - Thoughts regarding inner turmoil about your sexuality

[snogged]

As a teenager, I did experience inner turmoil and depression, though I don't see it as being related to my sexual orientation, per se. I think it's part of that whole development process that everyone deals with in different ways, depending on their personality and their environment. I did struggle with my self-esteem and the person I saw when I looked into the mirror. I worried about whether or not love would ever find me. I held the irrational fear that I would die a virgin. I was too afraid to harm myself because I didn't want my parents to find out about it, but I knew plenty of others who did (including my girlfriend, Sarah). I did, however, spend some time in therapy, but the woman I met with was a heinous bitch and I barely told her anything.

As I headed into my college years, these internal struggles no longer held me in the same tight grip. While I haven't attained full stability, I do feel more self-assured and self-confident in who I am and what I want to be. I fully embrace my definition of sexuality and have explored realms that piqued my interest. I'm a woman, a feminist, a sexual enthusiast, a nerd, a geek, a bookworm and I'm damn proud of it.


Day 6 - Did you face any problems regarding religion?
Day 7 - How your parents took it or how you think they might take it
Day 8 - What do you think the closet or being closeted means to you?
Day 9 - What do you think about LGBT Pride? Is it helpful or hurtful? Encouraged or unnecessary?
Day 10 - What does marriage mean to you?
Day 11 - Your favorite LGBT book (or one you’d like to read)
Day 12 - Your favorite LGTB movie (or one you’d like to see)
Day 13 - Your favorite LGBT role model/celebrity
Day 14 - Your favorite LGBT song or artist
Day 15 - Your favorite LGBT quote
Day 16 - A picture from your first LGBT relationship or of your first LGBT crush
Day 17 - Your first experience with an LGBT organization or event (Day of Silence, Pride, etc)
Day 18 - Something about the LGBTQ community you don’t understand or have a question about
Day 19 - Butch or Femme?
Day 20 - Maureen or Joanne? (Or your favorite LGBTQ show or queer-positive show)
Day 21 - Political LGBT issue that is closest to you or affects you most
Day 22 - An LGBT image that makes you smile
Day 23 - An LGBT image that makes you cry or makes you angry
Day 24 - The stupidest argument/comment you’ve heard about gay people or an LGBT issue
Day 25 - The LGBT slur you hate most or if you’ve taken back a slur and used it as a definition, ie queer or fag
Day 26 - Your favorite gay joke (we all need to laugh at ourselves)
Day 27 - Your favorite LGBT blog/tumblr/site
Day 28 - Write a letter to someone. It can be a coming out letter or a letter regarding how you hate their homophobia or whatnot. You don’t have to send it.
Day 29 - SHOUT SOMETHING! IT CAN BE HAPPY AND ABOUT PRIDE OR HATEFUL ABOUT HOMOPHOBIA!
Day 30 - Anything LGBT you’d like to end this on :]

Comments

[velvetwhip.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry you had a horrible therapist.


Gabrielle

[snogged.livejournal.com]

These things happen.
Without her, I probably wouldn't have gone into the field to try and be a different kind of therapist.

[diebirchen.livejournal.com]

Inner turmoil and issues of self-esteem, confidence, sexuality, irrational fears, and so on are the stuff of which the teen years are usually made, independent of sexual orientation. What matters is ultimately coming out whole and happy on the other side.

[snogged.livejournal.com]

I completely agree. :)

[spikesredqueen.livejournal.com]

You should be proud! *hugs*

[snogged.livejournal.com]

*hugs*
I am!

[hotfortwins.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry about the shitty therapist, but I'm glad it never held to self-harm <3

[snogged.livejournal.com]

I've definitely moved on to have better ones. :)

[hotfortwins.livejournal.com]

Good, I'm glad. <3